Finding me ep 3

episode 3
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I remember going out with my ex and him paying all his attention to another girl.
It was really bad because I had no one to talk to. I really hadn’t cared if he spoke to other girls. I hardly ever got jealous.
The only problem was that I was being left out.
I was dead bored and I wanted the ground to open up and swallow me.
I had never felt so stupid.
I guess one of the reasons that I loved being single was because It was less stress.
After the outing he acted like nothing happened and I acted the same.
There were other times he did stuffs that got me angry but I always kept my cool, choosing not to make a big deal out of anything.
But he always had one thing and the other to complain about until we broke up.
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At the age of twenty two I was still a virgin and I told my self, “Eriel it’s time you go on a self discovery, I was going to loose it”
Gone were the days were I had to think about what people would say.
I think I had even stopped thinking about that sh!t since. I decided to keep myself up until this time, not because of anyone but because I wanted to.
It was time for me to live a life for me.
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So I said I was going to be going on a self discovery, and that was exactly what I did.
I wanted to be able to make my own mistakes, and regret them.
Did I mention I am serving?
Okay, I just did.
I met this sweet couple during my service year. Princewill and Jen. Although I met Will first, and I had actually had a thing for him but then, I discovered he had a girl who was Jen.
She was so sweet and we became friends.
Jen wanted a three-some and she told Will. Unknowing to me, they drew me closer.
We became closer. And I started sleeping over at their place.
The first time I slept over there, Jen went completely nude. Gallivanting around. She was really beautiful. Lol. But it took a lot than that to make me fall.
The second night I slept there, we went clubbing. And I got back with them completely wasted.
That night, they had s-x on the same bed I was. I knew at one point because I opened my eyes, and I watched.
But I didn’t let them know I was up.
The third night, it was cold and I rolled myself up like a ball. I think Will noticed because he started rubbing my legs and from there, he moved a bit higher and he started touching me, with his girlfriend laying right beside him.
I didn’t stop him, I loved the feeling. He came closer to me and told me what he wanted and I nodded foolishly.
But thank God for Jen who was having cold feet that night. She said she couldn’t.
That night, they had s-x again with me on the bed. This time I couldn’t watch, I turned away.
The next morning, Will started apologising. Sincerely speaking, I didn’t see why he should, but I left it.
He started asking me why I didn’t join in and I arched a brow.
I told him I was a virgin and I am glad I wasn’t stupid enough.
He didn’t believe the virgin part at first until later.
So I met Leo who was pals with Will and talk buddies with my ex. I had a crush on him in camp.
He was good with words and he was a flirt.
That I knew.
But by then I had made up my mind that I was loosing it. And he seemed okay. So I chose him.
Will was really mad at me, but that didn’t stop me.